17 Feb My Pretty Little Shell
I’m really a very shy person. Yes, I make a lot of noise, and I chat a lot of shit, and laugh like a premature camel, but that’s only when I’m comfortable enough around you. I’ve been told I’m snobbish. People have no idea how true I wish this was. At least then, I’d have a less pathetic excuse for not participating. Truth is, I really suck at approaching people. Like, crash-and-burn suck. The best I could probably do is ask you a question and then go back to shutting the hell up.
Public gatherings are fun and all, but I really just like to be on my own. Sometimes, it gets really loud, and the noise is good for when I want to study, but the rest of the time, it’s just noise.
When I get frustrated enough, I either get buzzed, or retreat into my shell. Getting buzzed, I love! Really LOVE. I just lose it! I get really loud and giggly and blonde! Oh, and randy! Really randy! That’s another story though. Anyhu, I recently decided to put down the bottle, and thus have taken to retreating into my pretty little shell more often.
Don’t get me wrong. I love being in my shell. It’s really pretty. So many posters, and books and pictures. The right kind of music for each situation, plush carpetting, and refreshments (my fave part, of course). I can do whatever, be whatever, and just have a blast until time’s up. While maintaining the illusion of being occupied with my phone on the outside world. Yes, most of the time, I’m not really doing anything on my phone. Who ever is, really?
I go into my shell ’cause I want to be left alone and not forced to mingle with people I don’t know. Not that I don’t appreciate being invited out, I do. It makes me feel so special. And we already know how much I love feeling special. You don’t?! Well, I LOVE IT! But, when I there are more unfamiliar peopke around than I’m comfortable with, I feel a lot like the girl in the picture.
Eventually, I’ll get over being shy (I have to). But, I’m always going to keep my shell. Why? Cuz everyone needs a retreat once in a while. And, like I said before, my shell’s really pretty.